Unpublishing Posts
I recently published a series of posts about my history with music, but last night I decided to unpublish them. I felt they were a little too personal, they didn't really cover everything I wanted to, and they weren't very well-written. It's hard to fully encompass my entire history with music, all the bands I've loved and genre obsessions and concerts I've been to and struggles with expressing myself through music, in just a few short blog posts.
It feels kind of strange to unpublish a post, like I'm burying a part of myself that I wanted to shine a light on. I have mixed feelings about it. Should I have left those posts up in all their flawed glory, even if I wasn't completely happy with them? Should I go back and edit them, try to make them longer, more substantial? Should I turn it into a writing project spanning weeks or months?
What am I so self-conscious about? This is my personal blog, after all, isn't it? Of course I want to connect with others, but I also want to freely write for myself, and I don't want a large audience or algorithmic pull.
Maybe I'll return to those posts at some point in the future, but for now they remain buried underneath everything that I've deemed "good enough."